Narkissos,
If you really leave, then the XJW community will lose one of its pillars. You definitely deserve the praises which are conveyed to you. I, too, have great respect for your biblical and linguistic knowledge, even though I don't quite feel on the same wavelength as yours, as far as religious sensitivity is concerned. Let's say, using B. Grizzuti's terms, that I retain some intolerance to ambiguity (but no self loathing, thanks God), as a -still- nominal JW, whereas, as I see it, religion seems now to be for you a mere matter for intellectual study. I will keep clicking, on occasions, on Theolib so as to get a glimpse of what you are interested in. In any case, thanks for your contributions to JWD...et bon vent !